John's neverending chase

You try to run

and you try to hide

but they always find you,

they always catch up.

You try to hide

and you try to run

'cause you want to deceive them,

chase them away.

And you try to drown them

in poison and smoke

but they know how to swim,

they feed from the bane.

And wherever you go

and whatever you do

they'll always be with you,

the demons

that live in your head.

John's untalented struggle

Blank spaces

The feeling you get

When it's 3 in the morning

and you're alone in your head

and you eagerly want to write

but you have nothing to say to the paper

and the thoughts crawl beside you

and you want nothing more than to think

of her

and miss her

but then you realize that there is no her

anymore

and maybe there never even was...

John's repentance

Choosing a penance

The light of day
burns
and the darkness of night
scares
and there is nothing one can do
to escape them both.

You must choose your penance
but choose wisely because
sometimes
the pain is bigger than the dismay
and it's better to feed
your horror
rather than damage
yourself